Sunday, August 16, 2009

The Process Of Creation - 20 min Meditation Reflection

Two listeners asked about The Process of Creation for my Spirit Talk Radio "Ask Leela" segment:

"I have a burning question though that I think you might be able to help me with. If we are creating our own realities, does that mean that the people in our lives don't really exist and that our love for them is not really real? (I guess this question also derives from the many books and such that I've read that suggest the world is an illusion). I can get that concept, but at times it's depressing because I then think am I really all none of this real...are the things/people that I love not real?" Jen

I would like to understand the creation cycle better. I am going to write how I think the creation cycle works and would like to know your thoughts on it... there was the one consciousness, from this consciousness other consciousnesses were created and from those consciousnesses the first souls were created. The souls created constellations and started reincarnation. ... I think there are oversouls within oversouls too, as souls grow and gain experience, they start creating other souls too. I would be grateful if you could shed some light on this subject. " Tina

To hear my Channeled Meditation answer on last week's Spirit Talk Radio, click here:

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I'm going to allow some tones and sounds to come through to help us into a shift and change of perspective and then you will find you won't so much be hearing me sharing answers but you'll feel in your body and your awareness, in your own being, your own answer to the question.

Allow yourself to spiral under into your heart. Fall all the way back to your song-soul.

Allow yourself to come closer, feel all the Earth dissolving
feel all the walls that you've had against yourself fall all the way down.

And allow yourself to fall to the deepest, deepest part of the ocean of your own consciousness

Imagine you are falling, falling, falling into the deepest blue you can imagine or feel
it feels like you're tumbling all the way to the heart of yourself, to the heart of your creation.

Letting go - it has been hard work; it has been so hard to try and keep yourself so fixed in one point. Allow yourself to slip a little, allow yourself to glide and slide and move. Allow yourself to feel your heart opening like the sun.

And it's like you're in this darkness, in this soup of nothingness.
But there isn't nothing;
it's all something;
it's all you, it's all you, as you let your mind go, as you let your spirit soar,
you fall into your new life, new reality.
Feel your world around you.
Feel your world inside you.

Your world is not out there;
it's in you, it is, you can feel it in you.

Can't you feel your own substance?

And allow yourself to sink like falling into a duvet, silken syrup of smoothness of ecstatic light as you fall and fall deeper into the vibration of your core essence, your light.

For in the darkness of all that is, there is a spark of light, maybe a little glimmer, but there is a light of recognition in the light of awareness, like the life that is all that accompanies everything around you and through you. And as you fall into this light that you are you are wanting to experience yourself from another point of view.

Imagine you're that light and then out of your imagination, we are magicians, oh we are, we are, you create another part of you. Sparking off from you, sending tendrils of light out to the corners of your own self. And did you know, you are yourself out there and in another, and in another star and in another stone? Can't you feel your world turning, can't you feel your world is not out, it's there is inside you? We are all inside each other as one being.

And out of this one Being we are many variations of our self. We are oversouls and oversouls of oversouls. And we are sparks of life and we are constellations and stars and galaxies and planets and birds and trees and plants, all within the one spark that one being light that we are.

And but you see, we wanted to create, we wanted relate, we wanted to experience ourselves, we did not want to keep this all to ourselves, we did not want to remain in solitude with ourselves. We wanted to know what it would be like to experience ourselves as a planet over there. We wanted to know what it would be like to experience ourselves through your eyes as you look at me now. We wanted to know what it was like to be at the bottom of the ocean as well.

And so and so we split ourselves off in our imagination. Our imagination is real; it's real that it creates all of this and it is an illusion too. It is both real and illusion, all at the same time.

What a show we've created for ourselves.

And so, we wanted to discover, we wanted to take ourselves through different star systems. We wanted to know what it was be like to be another being in another star system. We wanted to know what it would be like to be so tiny, to be the personality of ourselves with without much empowerment, with huge limitations too. And we want to know what the tree felt as it looked to the listening sky. And so we did all these things from our creation, our own consciousness, the gods of our creation. And so we had such a ball in time.

But all these fragments of ourselves are perfect because through each other we are learning more, in that joy in their play of ourselves like a drumbeat yes, like a drumbeat, it's all coming back to us now and so all what you're seeing really is you, and through the eyes of your own soul.

And the amazing thing is we all wanted to experience this so deeply and intimately that the only way we could do this for sure was literally to create a universe unto ourselves, to experience our world to the full. So we played this game with ourselves as the one being we are. We played this game to the hilt. We imagined, we had pretended we were separated. So we gave ourselves freedom to experience literally our world our universe as our own.

And yet it felt like we were sharing a world, but we played that game with ourselves in order to help us into the dream of what we are wanting, to experience for each other, to aid our own evolution.

And so what I'm saying to you now through the window of my heart, is if you open that window now, when you look into another's eyes, you are literally seeing a part of you wanting to play a game with you, to help you learn, to help you grow, to help into more and more and more and more and more and more love.

Yes you are.

But you know you can also have the freedom, because your universe, your world is literally your creation, and everyone you see out there is real, for they are you too experiencing their world too, in their own private universe of themselves.

But it's not in isolation; it's not a solitary thing. Because we are so connected, we are one being. But we get to enjoy the idea of separation, we get to experience the gift of having a whole universe to ourselves, at the same time, to experience with other aspects of our self those things we are wanting to share and dream about as they are. As they are other aspects of ourselves, wishing to play out different ideas of their selves with other versions of themselves, in another universe, in another universal experience, another world.

So it's this beautiful synchronicity, there's this extreme freedom from knowing that you really can create the world of your dreams. And everybody can too because everybody gets the option of creating the world of their dreams. Because what happens is that you will attract those versions of yourself that wish to share the same idea of your world, your dream that you're wanting.

So for example in my world and those of you who are listening in now, you are wishing to share the same idea with me or you wouldn't be here listening to this conversation right now. You wouldn't be wanting to fall into a world, you don’t... the world is inside you, you know; it's not out there.

You are learning to fall into yourself and create a real world that is truly representative of the impeccable pure being that you are in love and light.

And so, there are other versions of us, different aspects of us at the same time, creating a version of Earth that may not play out the same unfolding, that may have chaos and disaster and destruction. And that's okay, because all paths will take you back to the remembrance and re-connection to our sun in ourselves: the lights within ourselves.

So allow yourself to feel this; you will get a lot of help in your sleep. Don't try to work it out with your mind; know that you are moving into a new wave; know that you are moving into a new wave of yourself.

And as you, change your tune, your world as your extension will follow you. Your world is your mirror. Our worlds Are our mirror, mirror, mirror, mirror...

Oh what a joy, what a joy.

And allow yourself to dissolve into knowing that you are connected to everything around you, that everything you perceive around you and through you is literally your own consciousness in different forms of vibration.

You are literally light and various forms of condensed light: everything is. Allow yourself to sink into that notion, and: exciting dreams.

Do not try and understand this; you will come to feel it and know it in your being, which is beyond belief. It is literally in the state of being of connection in love, in the light, in knowledge, in awareness.

Let the wave of love flow through you now.

Let yourself sleep in the arms of love.

And allow yourself to dream and sleep in the eye of the Sun, in the heart of the Sun of yourself and the light, and know and let the love sweep through you, to wash through you: taking you into a breath of a new beginning.

May the love be with you.

All My Love
LeelaLight (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Friday, July 17, 2009

"Gentle Love" Healing Balm Meditation for your Soul

Hello dear Friend

Here is my Healing Balm Meditation gift to you from my heart: soothing, healing and aligning for the soul.

This meditation song came to me as sweet ambrosia for the Soul, recorded during my recent Living In Light course in June outside on our decking, when a quiet healing and balancing meditation was needed. I feel this is the most beautiful and loving meditation and song I have done on YouTube so far, for it brings the exquisite flavour of the live Living In Light course with it.

Allow yourself 20 minutes to soak in this beautiful meditation, gently lifting you back to your heavenly state here on Earth, opening you to the love, joy and bliss of your true, shining Self, with beautiful images such as this:

Due to YouTube restrictions, this song/ meditation is in two parts; however, you may wish to download the single 20 minute Audio Only mp3 version instead.
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Listen/Watch Part 1:
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Listen/Watch Part 2:
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All My Love

LeelaLight (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Thursday, July 09, 2009

Struck as if by lightning and meeting a Sirian Blue In broad daylight

Hello dear friend,

My own experience of our Living In Light in June was also so powerful for me that I truly have felt that I would love to share with you heart-to-heart what I went through as the leader of our course, and also, in expressing it, to help me integrate what happened.

It's an amazing story! It's been, I'm certain, the most powerful experience of my whole life!! (Please refer to for the report on the course itself.)
I'm actually finding it difficult to write about my experiences, even now two weeks later, for my veins are still singing, my being is humming with ecstasy and joy and, most incredibly, there are power surges of Love washing through me in a continuous wave motion: it feels like I have tapped into the power of our national electricity grid! And, as I bath in this, I absolutely feel and know, without a shadow of doubt now, that we ARE the power and the Love in our World.

I knew this course was going to be phenomenal even before it began. I went through two weeks of intensive purification and integration within me prior to the course itself, with particular emphasis on getting myself physically and spiritually fit to take the amount of energy I could feel building up.

On the Saturday I led a meditation where I allowed myself to speak and sing in an ancient language which felt 'super-sonic' in nature: every sound, every vowel precipitated visions in me, such as of my connection to Lyra, ancient Atlantis, and to 'The Founders'.

I kept seeing mesmerising symbols dancing before my eyes, ancient symbols: Egyptian, Mayan and celestial in origin, star glyphs, streams and streams of hieroglyphics and creation spirals like crop circle patterns appeared to spontaneously be downloaded from my consciousness along with the tones and chants that I sang, leading our sonic meditation into the eve of the Summer Solstice.

I let myself go into the greatest light that I could imagine and channel. I felt I was struck by a lightening bolt, which took me to another threshold of Love and Light and to a depth I had never experienced before; it was the most jolting 'kundalini' awakening of my life! So, this was what an enlightenment experience should truly be like!

I was hit by the most powerful surge of energy: an intense electro-magnetic blue energy beam igniting my mind and bursting my heart open to be a huge window for my soul. My body was literally shaking; electricity pulsed through my cells, like a great purification. And at the same time, I felt a strong sense of a switching on in my mind of neural pathways and transmitters. Sounds like radio waves were whooshing through my ears and my heart and my body, bringing me the gift of this psychedelic vision; it was an opening of all my senses to alternate reality experiences in that divine moment, and in the next, and in the next....

And then out of the etheric blue mist in my meditation, I saw the 'blue' beings, I felt and saw them with me: The Founders and the Sirian Blues, watching over me, supporting me, encouraging me with such sweet unconditional love for me... Even now, I still feel and see their presences with me and it brings tears to my eyes, for I feel their love and connection with me so profoundly.

I am humming still with this strong magnetic energy vibrating though my being even as I write to you now, perhaps you may pick up on the vibe!!

And I am seeing bursts of opalescent and iridescent colours flooding my senses, orange-pink, silvery blue-green. I am enjoying the delicious ecstasy of my senses being dazzled into pure bliss. This persistent humming is accompanied by neon splashes of colour in my normal physical open-eyed experience too, and the colour blue pervades around me like an electrical cocoon.

Furthermore, since that potent meditation and energy activation, I keep seeing out of the corner of my eye, the pooling of my physical world around me into vortexes; I feel I am touching the spiritual Skelton Keys and essence of my world. Most of all, the phenomenal experience of the overlapping and merging of my senses is perhaps the most 'sensual' experience ever: 'feeling sound' and 'smelling colours' and so on. My senses are becoming open ended, blending into just one multi-faceted sense. It's made me now SO open that I feel even more vividly the emotions and thoughts of those around me and also those who may not be in my physical vicinity but we are wishing to make a connection, I feel it so much it's almost overwhelming, yet I feel protected here in this quite backwater by the sea from too many external influences all at once, for I wonder if I could cope with it yet!

And to top it all, one of the Sirian Blues has been 'materialising' into my physical reality. I was walking by the coast, near the derelict old tin mines and among the waste scrap stones flecked with copper, tin, and quartz glinting in the sun. I love his place, for it reminds me of being on Mars (another old 'home' of mine!) with great crater-like openings in the ground and the spoil glinting like gold, and then I saw him.... the unmistakable figure of a Sirain Blue: very smooth blue skin standing about seven foot tall with a stoic stance of a being that knows its own power, eyes vivid blue - very intense with silver flecks, blue silver facial features, very lion-like.

He was gazing at me with an upright stance yet friendly and caring. This stance was, intriguingly, very similar to the other-worldly beings that appeared at the end of the 2009 film 'Knowing' (and the way they turned into light beings and the vision of their craft-of-light was the most closely matched to my own experiences I've ever seen portrayed!) (first three quarters of that film are eminently missable, however!) After a few moments, and some telepathic communication he literally dematerialised in front of my eyes, 'fading out' of my reality and leaving me with the distinct impression that he had said: "It's okay, were here to help you and your world as you go through your transition into the next dimension." I was a left with the deepest feeling that I was being supported by them at levels, many of which I'm not even fully conscious of!

So, all my senses have become super-tuned and I am still getting used to them. For example, I am finding everything a bit loud. I feel sound beneath sound. I have been going around our house having to turn the volume down on everything.

This has also extended into an inner blending, with parts of my subconscious becoming very conscious; it feels so good to be even more intimate and aware of so much more about myself. I can emphatically conclude that my life has become a dawn of discovery about myself and our world, every day!

I truly feel that I am moving beyond the belief of living in love and light in our heaven here on Earth, and on into an irrefutable awareness of pure Knowingness, as well as the feeling of waves and waves of awesome Love in my heart, connecting me to all hearts.

Thank you with all my heart to all of us in our unlimited Love.

And I feel and know that The Founders and my Sirian friends are here right now supporting me in my chosen path to create a New World of total unconditional love, light, integrity and freedom and that this world is one we are creating right now through the living of our lives in unconditional love, freedom and Light.

And the fact that my Sirian friends have come into my physical life means to me that we are truly bridging the gap between our old world experience and transiting into the world experience that has been our dream and is now becoming our Reality!

Thank you, 'God' ,Thank you My Love , Thank you my Universe, thank you All, Thank you for touching my soul and igniting our fire, our Passion, into the greatest effect.

As it is in our Heaven so it is on our Earth, we are the Light, the Power and the Glory.

So Be.. It.
All My Love

(1) The Founders:-the creators of the human genotype, in a sense are our Father and Mother. To humans they appear as humanoid in appearance, tall, graceful, androgynous, appearing somewhat insect like, sometimes called the Mantis Beings. They have the energy of utter compassion and an energy field of amethyst purple and lapis blue.

(2) The Sirian Blues. From the Star system Sirius, often portrayed as gods as symbolised by the leonine Sphinx and in the form of the blue skinned Indian Gods and Goddesses such as Krishna.

About Living In Light:
Living In Light is a course held here in Cornwall, England that takes you from where you are to the next level that you are ready for. The amount of light and energy that you allow yourself to access on our Living In Light courses is directly related to the level that you are able and willing to integrate at each immersion, and so, in a sense, could be said to be self -regulating.

So if this feels exciting to you I encourage you to come to our live courses or partake of my invaluable unconditional love, high energy healing and on-going life and light support:
Living In Light

From Our June Living In Light course, see

Saturday, May 30, 2009

The Art of Fashion: My Own True Colours

Do you ever wonder why I have so many photos of me in various outfits? (You'll see dozens as you browse around this blog and my websites!)

Well, it's not just vanity but a genuine delight in sharing my own creative expression with you in the form of my unique dressing art, my own True Colours!

Many have commented and complimented me on my dress sense, have encouraged me to start a design business and so on, so I thought I'd love to share a little background on how I use my flamboyant flair for dressing up as a celebration of spirit!

I take the view that when we celebrate our appearance and make Art out of ourselves we are into our Godhood. And I would like to show you how we can use even these 'credit conscious' times as a great opportunity to step into the dance and flaunt our natural abundance of spirit, teamed with our creative flair in dressing up to whole new level.

I emphatically feel that fashion, dress and accessories can be used as exotic tools and powerful aids in your journey of expressing "The Art Of You"; they can help you tap into and give you confidence to be the authentic and artistic you.

Just as Dorothy in The Wizard Of Oz putting on her red shoes helped her key into the ambiance of another world of her, I too use my love of colours to create great love and art out of me. Each morning I survey the palette of my wardrobe, all artistically arranged in different colours, textures and hues smiling at me, inviting me to take the plunge and play.

I see my accessories: beautiful jewellery akin to treasures glinting in the early morning light; handbags smelling of old well-loved leather with a hint of spice in gorgeous shades of regal red; emerald green or turquoise blue, bright harlequin scarves; silk ribbons glistening with jewel-like colours; feathers in all hues; leather thongs in rainbow colours - all begging to be played with, draped and swirled.

And so, like a great artist, I dive into the palette of my wardrobe, letting my spirit, my excitement guide me, rather than the limitations of what's 'in' or what a 'well-known' celebrity is wearing (unless that truly feels like me!) And even then, I will play my unique slant on it, giving vent to the wild, crazy in me as I seek inspiration from all round me, inside and out: my imagination, my fantasy, the colours in the landscape and in nature, or by indulging my senses and my lust for excellence in a fashion fest found in high class glossy magazines. This is how I rediscover my unique style each day, seeking and nurturing the authentic me and then by wearing my creation, I get to play out the real me for real!

Clothes and accessories pulled together in unexpected ways can be a sure pointer to the real you. Your selection of shoes, clothes, scarves, belts, tights, handbags and fragrance can be a joyful and fun adventure in announcing to the world who you truly are as you discover and make great art out of your appearance and allow yourself to take it to the limits

Just remember: how you dress should distil your personal style to its purest essence. So, either love wearing it or play with another colour or style. Or, by the judicious placing of an accessory in a contrasting colour that you love, like a tie or a necklace or scarf, you can really bring out the true beauty in you. And so, through my fun, I promote my love of dressing up to the realm of being a fashionista!

And so, in being an artist of the heart I feel it is imperative for me to live in the exaltation that beauty and art of our world is both inside cooking in our imagination and extrapolated outside into our physical world for us all to see and rejoice and celebrate in. The physical and the spiritual must not be divided, but allowed to infuse with each other; we are the artists, the inspiration and the art. This is my Art from my Heart and our jobs as artists and creators are to make great love and great art out of our lives.

I love ecstatically to share my true colours with you, my wonderful friend, in many ways which express my Soul, not only through my evocative, spirited, inspirational writings and the songs and videos of my love, but also through my own dress-art. Each day I create an entire artistic composition out of my harmonically chosen ensemble of garments and accessories...

Oh, and just for the record, although I do have a couple of expensive outfits, primarily, I so enjoy the thrill and adventure of discovering amazing garments, accessories and gorgeous designer dresses at massive discount prices (maybe even 90% off!) in designer discount outlets, or even total bargains in charity shops.

In a way, it can be like embarking on a great treasure hunt, an expedition into my soul as I go exploring for new gems to add to my collection. I may find myself leaving the familiarly and the mediocrity of the high street and taking swift right turn down a narrow cobbled alley, my excitement pulling me as I venture into a little shop that just caught my attention with a very unusual item in the window, like a hat reminiscent of an exotic headdress - all feathers and sparking jewels. On entering, I quickly become accustomed to the dimmed light of this Aladdin's cave of delight as I survey piles of beautiful fabrics: dusty satins, plush velvets with an elusive scent enrapturing my senses to another age or time. I have to be open to the unexpected, for then I do not miss an item - a belt, a bracelet, a brooch, which may capture my imagination, just because I allowed it. All this feeds my spirit, quenches my thirst for adventure and slowly, but surely, builds up the palette of costumery delights' that awaits me each morning.

Or I gaily join the hordes in my favourite discount store (TK-Max!) feasting on the row upon row of untidy, jam-packed, ridiculously priced-down garments. My glance quickly scans the territory, looking for the one, the one item that's calling me, that shines out at me, that's got my name stamped all over it. And then in a flash, it catches my eye: the colours are me, the style is so mine, it's even in my size; and then the price, well, what can I say, they're giving it away! It's a manifestational marvel - a miracle of materialisation! It's as though we we're destined to meet and it's love at first sight!

And so I fine-tune my artistic eye and my ability to scan lines of the mundane and sameness, looking for the beauty in the ordinariness, even in the junk piles. For I believe we come into our own as we extol and source the beauty in the mundane and the resources at hand, and that as great artists, this is our job and we should do it with passion. I certainly adore creating great art out of basic materials that at first glance may easily be dismissed as unworthy of my attention! However, if the material is gorgeous, or the cut and style is fantastic for me; or there is something about the colour that sings to my soul, then I grab it to add to my treasure chest. For example, I recently got the scissors out and learned some simple dressmaking skills and it was the beginning of a beautiful new relationship, even a 'romance' with my own artistic tailoring side. Now, when I find a dress or skirt that may totally unfaltering or simply wildly the wrong size, but it's made from a beautiful piece of material, I don't discard it, but honour it and take it with me (sometimes only for couple of pounds!) and then I culpably take it apart and restyle and fit it in my own new way!

Imagination and making the most of what's around and available is part of the creative process! One, day I discovered the joys and possibilities of dyeing! I had found a gorgeous pair of suede boots in a rather subdued shade of beige in a charity shop, whereas I have always hungered for a pair of purple boots. And so I dyed them a lush shade of Lilac with special shoe dye. And what an amazing effect from something so simple! I am often stopped in the street and asked excitedly: "Where on earth did you get those gorgeous boots?"

And so I've been building my wardrobe and accessory collection like this over the years, finding innovative ways to keep them visible and displayed for my daily play and artistic creation. And now my world has rewarded me with my own sacred 'walk in wardrobe', like a temple to the divine Dressing-up Goddess!

So, each day, time permitting, I linger lightly over my palette, allowing inspiration and combinations to compose themselves, juggling many options of colour, texture and style, until finally it's all hanging together there on me, like a painting in a mirror... yet still waiting to be finalised with a 'piece de résistance', a finishing embellishment of a scarf or piece of jewellery and a viola! - another gorgeous and distinctively coordinated new outfit has been birthed and I am wearing my own True Colours. And it's got my own unique 'designer' label on it!

I have metamorphosed into a walking Work of Art, as John calls it! Actually, I feel that my outfit IS me, and so the finale, of course, is wearing my art during the day in the joy and celebration of my life and of creation itself. I love to share my own True Colours with anyone and everyone, so I'll wear it all when I go out, down the road, in the supermarket, sometimes, even when I'm out walking! And even if no one's around I still love the joy of wearing my creation, as it exalts me to another expanded level of me, and that feels so good.

And when I feel fantastic my world feels good too: I see it reflected in another's happy eyes, in the smile of my beloved, the appreciation of a passer-by who says, shyly: "You have made my day", and we exchange heartfelt words of love before I silently pass on, leaving an echo of tinder to awaken their adventurous spirit.

Furthermore my partner, my love: Nature, seems to revel and love me even more when I feel good and display my own True Colours. I see nature itself, returning my celebration with its own display, becoming even more rich and verdant, with blousy wildness of rampant flowers, a sun that shines much more brightly and a sea that rises up meet me and move with me in my exaltation

And so dear friend, I invite you to pick up sticks and gather your adventurous and artistic spirit too, and start playing and making art out of your appearance and dress, every day, even in the smallest way: a touch of colour here, of flamboyance there - whatever makes your heart sing!

I promise you it will change you and have a wonderful ripple effect on you, your life and your relationship with your world.

And if you would like me to help you personally with discovering your unique style, your own True Colours: well that would be such a joy and pleasure for us both. I have designed a special service, uniquely tailored to you, whereby we spend a whole day together to help you transform your own style and find Your True Colours. So let's go and dance together in the streets of Truro or Falmouth, or I can possibly come to you. Read all about it on my website:

And we thus will both become icons of inspiration.

Go on unleash the artful artist in you,

Your greatest fan,


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Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Our Secret Lives

Do you too have a Secret Life? A Life that in some ways is more real than your everyday life? Maybe it's calling and you've yet to fully hear it, such as while you're deep in your sleep, whispering to you in your dreams; or perhaps it is speaking to you in the rustles of the leaves or the howling of the wind.

I would love to invite you today to explore your own secret nature and let the play and flow of your hidden self take you into a new realm of being you.

It just might be the ticket you have been looking for.

Let me give an example in the form of my own Secret Life: I have such an affinity and resonance with the Elementals. Elementals, or nature devas, are etheric, spiritual cosmic entities aligned with the elementary energies of air, earth, fire or water. Through Love, they transmute the etheric, the blueprint for nature, within their own beingness into a more condensed physical form, such the trees, plants, flowers and landscape around us.

So, when I look to the sky I become aware of the Elementals which are creating and holding the sky together and my heart soars on a melodic high; I feel myself being uplifted and airborne, becoming like liquid light: opalescent and sylph-like, my body is luminous light streaming outwards in every direction from my heart's radiant fire, as I reconnect with the Elementals as expressions of, as aspects, of my very own beingness.

I feel my heart's imperative and explosive joy as I sense myself as the light, wispy sylph being I am, taking light energy into my body, transmuting it into the physical form through the vibrations of my Love and Ecstasy and so sculpting and creating from the etheric blueprint for nature my own rich, verdant world. My own Elemental specialty is the plant world and the domain of sky, thus I am constantly experiencing how I am effecting the weather patterns and cloud formations, as well as the growth, blossoming and flowering of the plants in my world, and even nature itself.

I feel the air around me and inside me as it vibrates and oscillates with the possibilities of form and how I, as the element of Air, press towards the light, take it into my body in spangles of light, and through writhing in ecstatic joy and ecstasy it is released, weaved and condensed into plant form and the world I behold. Thus, I cry out in my blessed role: "I am a cosmic agent; I am the Sculptural and the Art Form."

As an etheric light being, I unfold myself and expand within the sound of music in our cosmos finding my Self-expression in the moving current of modulated air. I love it when birds fly through my air space with the beating of their wings causing the air to vibrate, adding harmonics to our cosmic symphony.

And so I, too, soar on the air waves, making cosmic music with my love and dance of the etheric energy out of my consciousness; the sky is my lover, other elementals, such as fairies and elves are my friends, and nature is my playground and there for my glorious caretaking.

Behold! This is my secret life, and I feel that my secret ethereal life is the real me... And, as I ride and fly in streams of light I am surfed up by my luminous life; it's intimately flexible, buoyant and brimming full of sparkling possibilities.

However, it's when I forget and fallout of my 'true me' state, I get myself into trouble: I begin to stall and plummet in my life and descend into chaos. Difficulty and challenge reign, and the rain comes and the wind blows and my world turns to pain ...

When this happens, I have learnt to stop trying to control my life, to 'sort it out' but rather, to simply reconnect again with that Secret Life, with the Real Me.

So I wonder, tell me about you? Do you, perhaps, have a secret life that’s more the Real You?

Would you like a little help to find it? Well, you can find your secret life too, by listening to your dreams, paying attention to your fantasies, listening to the messages that speak to your soul and passion, such as through movies, books or even something crazy, like an evocative advertising billboard or an unexpected road sign (I have one near here that reads under the town name of Penryn: Dreams, Bliss, Reality (and which had been damaged to read Dream is Reality!)). We all get messages from our secret lives all the time, we simply need to pay attention and not dismiss them for pure nonsense or frivolity. If something catches your attention or enlivens you, if it speaks to your heart and soul and makes you feel expansive, more loving and freer, then it's coming from the Real You.

Okay, now I know that my secret life may be a bit way out, but I wouldn't be surprised if you had one too; allow me to share what you may find for yourself.

For example, you may find that you have natural love and fascination of the fairy and elfin world, or indeed the fantasy realm of the Lord of the rings Lore; which may denote a secret longing to be like a being from these books.

Or maybe there's covert wizard or witch in you that seeks soul refreshment in Harry Potter books.

Maybe you are lover of adventure, expeditions and travel and you love to peruse through travel brochures or lose yourself in he excitement of adventure stories: denoting an adventurer at heart.

Or the call of the ocean sings your veins and you long to dive or swim in the world's wildest places.

Or you have an insatiable love for nature: allow yourself to dive into it and see how you would love to share the beauty that you see.

Maybe you love watching movies about super heroes revealing an innate desire in you to be an inspiration and do a great good for others by acknowledging your hidden gift and sharing what pulls your heart.

Perhaps you have a devout desire to express the Divine? Then allow yourself to give it a voice or an art form that is so naturally you...

Listen to your longings, your fantasies what you love to read, or watch in movies, your favourite TV program or character revealing a hidden aspect of you. Perhaps think of your adolescence and what you use to love as a child; often the forgotten or hidden longings point to our secret life.

The thing is not to take it too literally E.g. I have a love of detective thrillers, mysteries and unsolved crimes; which if I listen to my heart and gut is not so much calling to be in the police, but a desire to use my intuition to glean important information and to assist others which, at the moment, is being expressed in my Intuitive life Guidance.

So, the Art is to blend that aspect of you into your physical live by trusting your imagination and asking yourself: "I wonder what would be the way for me that is natural, easy and exciting to express this aspect of me in my life?"

For example, if your heart beats faster at the prospect then you are on track, or if you get the feeling that it expands your life and your relationship with yourself and your world, then you have hit the gold of your secret life.

I know how important it is to honour and cherish the true you, and to nurture, encourage and kindle our urge, our instinctive desire, to blend that part of us into our precious lives; thus expanding our world with our unique view.

And so I warm to you and your happy, joyful prospecting for your own Secret Life, and my heart beats with you.

All my love,
LeelaLight (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Monday, April 13, 2009

Let's run like wild horses

Hello Dear One

Do you believe in magic, dreams and miracles?

Do you long to gallop free on the golden sands, roll in the earth, kiss the cornflower blue sky and hug the silvery moon?

Well, giddy-up! Come with me down to the lonely sea and sky where our sprits fly and surf on ecstatic waves of our love, waves that roll and lap to the thunders of our hearts; washing us clean like Atlantic rollers ready for the next wave, the next beat of our pulse to guide us in the wind.

Let's make a scared pact at midnight; (a magical time when the boundaries between our dimensional experiences are thinner) to bind our hearts in love.

And pledge to give our soul to the wind of our freedom and say goodbye to the prison bars of mediocrity, restriction and cup-half-empty

Let's go to the leading edge of our soul's lament and venture into the wild, open wilderness of our heart' plains and gallop free; our mane and tail flying like a banner in the in the wind!

Let's kick up our heels and fly as we say goodbye to our fears and trade them for the excitement, the joy and the rush of simply feeling fully alive.

Let's stand together heart-to-heart and hand-in-hand; foreheads gently touching as we pledge our hearts to the Sun and our souls to the Moon.

Let's dissolve into our dream of ourselves as we ride on the quickening that’s our heart's salvation. We cannot hold onto control or stability anymore; the change, the quickening, the speeding up in our world is at hand.

To resist our momentum as we gather up speed is to resist our quickening, our metamorphosis into our light; we will become whole as we let go our attachment to normality and embrace the unpredictable, the wild unknown landscape of our infinite depths .. Chaos is our friend as we go through our purification and our fine tuning into purity of beingness: our freedoms to run and move like wild horses.

And so, I excitedly ask that you join me in this exciting idea and let's run like wild horses as we ride the quickening, as we venture into our ecstasy, the joy of riding the wind and the thrill of the pace as we sky dive into heaven's infinite spaces; allowing all the nooks and crannies in our being to be infused with love.

I feel that many of us Light workers are all going through our own personal crucifixations and resurrections right now in the form of our own personal greatest challenges. Some of us are very aware of this, some of us are not.

Our greatest fears, our deepest scares, are 'scars' on our being (or 'samskaras' - Sanskrit for the fundamental impressions left on the heart of an individual from previous experiences/lives). They are our own personal 'crucifixions' there to help us to embrace our true selves, and to be transmuted into our light: to help us become our own resurrection.

Resistance to this natural process will hurt us and cause us to lose much vital energy if we succumb to this habitual knee jerk reaction of holding back. For example, when we try to control our reality in a vain attempt to maintain some semblance of 'stability' we slip, we stumble, we falter, we feel pain and our evolutionary leap is disrupted. But our souls are champing at the bit now, telling us it's time to sacrifice our fears and limitations and go into the light of our Sun

By heeding our soul's calling and following the scent of our excitement we gallop into the wind, heads held high in pride, like warriors of the Heart, flying our emblem of Freedom, Beauty and Truth for all to see. We carry the badge of courage, love and honour on our chests : we are hearts of fire, pulsing our world into a new dimension.

Oh! Brave Hearts join me in the call of our Wild Spirits: our Freedom to live and love openly and limitlessly, and run like wild horses as we ride the waves of change into a new reality: a new world, a new way of being...

Fear is the great tyrant of ourselves laughing in the wind; we can ride and surf on fear or we can shrink back into half of ourselves, like cowering to ghosts in the dark when, truly, we are Knights of the Sun.

Come: let's ride the Wave into the Heart of the Sun!

Now, I believe there are signs of this dramatic shift all around us. For example, have you heard a strange sound in the air, like a great humming?

Listen carefully and you may hear it too - our Earth is awakening and sounds like this great humming are whirling and whooshing through our ears as we open ourselves to our higher, ecstatic frequencies. We will feel the humming intensify as we feel our world cracking out of its tight-fisted grip into holy 'wizzledom' (my own new word for a hybrid cross between: wizardry, wisdom and kingdom!)

And then it will shift into a great thunderous roar of rapturous freedom - our light bodies igniting, quenching like nectar our spiritual thirst.

Oh Yes! We love the great Roar of the Wave, calling us to open up and run with it, as we hear our thunderous hearts pounding.

We are reaching critical mass as we approach the marker of 2012. And by moving through the photon belt of our resistances to this or that (by embracing this and that within ourselves) we are becoming like liquid sun as we merge our past, future and now as one... We are remembering all the separated parts of us now, fusing together into one.

So, do not resist your momentum, your dream. Integrate polarity, your personal fears, crosses and separation from your Whole Self (Holy Self) by allowing yourself to be carried on the wave of your dream into the Heart's centre: our Sun, Our Unity!

Be wild and free my heart, my love, living as our ecstatic communion in our divine pulse: we are our next Dimension; welcome to the Fifth World.

In Waves of Love and Light
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Monday, March 30, 2009

Awakening Sleeping Beauty

Hello dear...

In every one of us there lies a Sleeping Beauty waiting to be awakened by the kiss of love.

However, instead of waiting for someone to come and storm the palace gates of our self-imprisonment and break into our soul, we must summon the magic power of our Authentic Self to break this cruel enchantment that has left us unaware of our own glory.

How did this arise, we wonder to ourselves?

The question itself invites our quest into the far reaches of our own magical story. Like the pages of a dusty, lightly battered, but well loved book, we backtrack to the origins of our heartache, turning the pages hungrily for our answer.

For me it was the loss of my "first love" to death that stained me with the curse of permanence of a love irrevocably lost into the mists of my past. It was a hurt so painful to endure; it cut so deeply into the quick of my soul.

In order to try and put a salve on this wound of my heart, I made myself numb to my own life, beauty and spark: a bit like pricking my finger on the spindle and falling into a deep sleep; this numbing 'sleep' has gone on for a very long time.

And so, some of us do become comfortably numb over something that happened, to freeze-frame us in a reference point for the rest of our lives, in my case to the timbre of: "I will not let my guard down; I will not let in Love."

Whereas, if we had understood the situation better, we might have celebrated our good fortune instead!

For example, if, as a young girl my first love had not died suddenly, I would NOT have pricked my finger on the spindle of heartache, I would not have seeked comfort in the arms of the etheric realm, nature, fairy beings, the elementals, devas and other dimensional beings; for they called me from my silent slumber in the painful years of my adolescence.

And so it was in the sanctuary of the scared groves of nature and in Holy Communion with Star Beings that I came into my life and thus set me on my Sacred Path.

So, within my tragedy, or 'misfortune', was hidden the impetus to put me firmly on the footpath to my purpose and on to progressively find my fortune, my own unique natural genius: To share a way of Light, especially when you feel all love is lost.

Subsequently, with the assistance of my guides (the 'great shining ones'), I began my quest to find out what makes us fall 'out of love' and how we can stay in love with ourselves, each other and our lives, no matter what...

All this has unfolded beautifully into my own unique art from of my heart, my sacred work: my passion in the form of my writing, courses, videos and the amazing light and dance with my beloved clients... and even in the sharing with you now in our precious moments together through these words .

And so dear reader, I wonder if you too just shut yourself down at some cataclysmic point of your life to help YOU find YOUR stroke of genius?

Perhaps your cruel enchantment was catalysed by peers who were incapable of love, overly critical parents or the devastating loss of a loved one or a beloved pet, or a humiliation that cut you to your core.

And you may have stemmed the flow of your bleeding heart by numbing your pain with all manner of devices, such as: alcohol, or drugs or food, or work....

In my case, I stopped eating and became anorexic for some considerable time in order to reduce my energy so much that I was barely alive, and so couldn't feel much. And, yes, I did find some blessed peace in that place, for a while...

So, I whisper to you now in soft honeyed tones of my love for you, melting away the sadness of our years into the exile of our silent prison, with the siren call arising from the depths of our soul, mouthing words of wonderment: "It's time to awaken your Sleeping Beauty."

One can never change the past; in fact, we truly don't want to, for it sets the seeds for our sacred path and our destiny. And, like our fairy godmother, we actually can wave the magic wand to see the good (or gold) in what we have experienced.

As we allow ourselves to make alchemy by casting the glorious light of a positive perspective on what we have experienced, we thus spin our misfortune into the pure gold of ourselves.

Sometimes, the most tragic experience in our lives was the very thing that we needed to set us on our way into our true Light and to find and express our own unique vein of gold.

We are our own heroes and I lovingly and empathetically invite you to write your own magical tale with an amazing and happy ending.

With Love from my heart,

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Thursday, March 26, 2009

Healing the wound in our heart and honouring our wild, crazy, free Self.

Hello dear friend,

Have you ever experienced being in the flow your life, just going about your business, when out of the blue (or is it the black!?) something totally unexpected happens that simply knocks you sideways and sends you into a spin of bewilderment, as you reel from the shock?

Well, such a thing happened to me the other day when I was in the flood of my ecstatic bliss and love - as I tend to be. I happened to be perusing through the comments of my video on You-tube, 'Into the Love of our being', when I caught sight of a rather jarring remark:

"You're not right in the head, are you?"

This simple remark was enough to hit its mark in my heart with the accuracy and precision of sniper rifle. It was as if I was hit by the resounding ricochet of a heartbreaking memory of a painful incident long, long ago and of its impact on my life ever since.

And so this hurtful comment sent me spinning back in time:

I remembered that I was in my early twenties on that fateful day. It was one of those beautiful hot, still summer days, with the scent of freshly mown hay lingering in the air, the hum of a tractor in the distance, and with a cornflower blue sky with a complete absence of clouds; except, that is, the cloud that was about to erupt in my life.

I was really worried about my close friend: I had never seen him like this; he was in the throes of the deepest, darkest depression I had ever witnessed. He had the haunted look in his eyes of someone who had lost all hope as he lay on the cement floor, dusted with a light coating of sand in our condemned home that we were attempting to make habitable.

I could tell as he tried to numb his feelings with yet another a bottle of Jack Daniels, that he was utterly desperate and truly close to the edge. I felt overwhelmed; I felt that if I didn't get help I might lose him -I loved him so much!

I was very young at the time and didn't know how to cope; I was really frightened and feeling desperate for my friend, so I did what I felt I should - I rang a close relative for help.

He dropped everything in response to my cries and pleas and rushed over, but when he saw my friend lying on the floor in a crumpled heap he assumed that because there was no pool of blood or anything like that that there was obviously nothing much wrong. Then came the unexpected: he actually turned on ME and lashed out with words to the effect of: how dare I call him when there was obviously nothing wrong, furiously lashing out at me with the bone jarring words, yes, you guessed it: "You're not right in the head, are you?"

I think he had had the impression that my friend was physically dying under a truck or something, But I truly felt that my friend was gong to do something crazy; I felt he was on the brink of taking his life that day if I hadn't done something and so I had reached out with a plea from my heart, only to be struck down and dismissed in my moment of greatest need!

And so those words were that day seared on my soul, and now again, recently, as I glanced with tears in my eyes at those exact same jibing words glaring at me out of the comments section under my video, I hear the same cutting words imbued with another's anger at me. For I am not just simply hearing the voice of my viewer, but the scream of my relative's anger ringing in my ears, as I vividly recall the very same thing said to me in a fit of fury, with that flag of hatred flashing in their eyes. The flaming arrow of my close relative's contempt for me became an embedded truth for me, because it came sealed with the passion of his rage and the peak of my pain born out of that momentous moment and the severing of our Love. And so, a part of me died that day as I cut off my connection to my family and the idea of ever asking for help.

I knew in that moment he had cut me out of his heart forever and it left an indelible scar in my being; always lurking, it had to come back and haunt now me by a causal cutting YouTube comment.

I find it very strange that, despite the majority of comments to my videos having been awesomely appreciative, awestruck and enlightening and that I have also had a fair number of abusive and some downright unmentionable comments to my videos, that it was this one that really hit me where it hurts.

I wondered about this and why I had such a strong reaction to the comment and I realised that, because of the connection to my painful youth-hood experience, I had convinced myself it was actually true!

The wound has always been there and I know that as I go into more and more love of myself and this our beautiful world, those parts of me that are held down in pain and denial come up to meet me, to heal and be integrated into my being and into Love.

And so I sat down and felt and embraced my pain in my heart; it really was a wound in my heart, a searing hot pain like a knife cutting deep. I opened my soul and my body to feel it all, without backing away or denying it. After the first flush of intensity, the pain dissolved, as I felt it without resisting it. In that moment of non-resistance, acceptance and melting, I felt love and then healing as I saw the light of this experience.

Then I felt a tremulous tremble, like a spirit-quake in my being, as these words came whistling in on the voice of my soul:

"To believe in your passion, your love and your vision is to honour yourself.

"To live it, even when you are ridiculed, is to be in Exaltation!

"Go and soar freely like the wind!"

As I took this to heart, in that moment of healing between the rift of normality and the extraordinary, it was if the sun had come out. I realised in that golden momentous moment that my purpose in life is to be real and be authentic to myself: to share my passion, joy and unconditional love in my open and wild and wacky way!

Now, this may be stretching the boundaries of what is comfortable for others, and if for them that means I'm not 'right in the head' then yes, from their point of view, they're right!

However, I would prefer to be considered crazy rather than normal, for in the expanse of my free mind I feel the possibilities of new frontiers of being and living. I feel that ecstasy and love is our natural state of being, and so I revel in my natural ecstasy and love and am prepared to be in that natural, but unusual, place with others, even on YouTube!

And I bow and pay homage to my friend and his 'sharp' comment (he calls himself Blade004) and say thank you for reminding me of my preference to be wild , free and crazy and full of love, in preference to be 'normal' in my head!

I feel so grateful to Blade004, for without his cutting remark, I would not have got so in touch with the wound in my heart and so heal this part of me, thus enabling me to embrace the wild, wacky and loving me even more fully as my gift to our world.

Isn't that delicious, freeing and wild: allowing my mind to be free of the restraints and limitations around conformity that typically dog us?

I remember a comment on another YouTube video where someone had said that I share my love so shamelessly and honestly, and I do know that when I share my love, ecstasy and passion so freely and openly, I may be stretching the boundaries of what is comfortable for others. However, I feel deep in my soul that we all need people in our world that push the boundaries of what is considered normal and possible and that's not crazy: that’s genius.

We all have genius. When we dare to express what is uniquely us and let it flow we are in touch with that genius. And my own daring genius is to share the idea that living in Love and Ecstasy is natural - and that's okay!

And so yes, some will say I'm crazy and out of my mind, and I say to myself: "Thank them deeply for they are showing you the way of your truth: that is your unique self. Thank them for helping you affirm what is natural, even if not 'normal' in you... Revel in your extra-ordinariness."
And I say to you too: "Honour and love the crazy, brilliance of yourself: it's what makes the unique you and is the seed of your unique gift to our World."


All is love,

Leela (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Monday, March 23, 2009

Take a trip into Spring Equinox Magic

Come take a 'trip' with me to celebrate the Spring Equinox in a unique, Psychedelic Style!

Here is a potent and joyful video to help you soar on the wave of magic and Light that IS the Spring Equinox - to usher you into more light, love and ecstatic joy of yourself.

You may like to watch the video below in stunning HD (High Definition) instead
- click here to watch in large screen High Definition at YouTube!

I truly hope that, as we face the increasing light of our sun, you may use this video to see this light as a reflection of our own growing and expanding Light, and to let yourself shine even more brightly than you've EVER dared before, as a radiant sun in your own right blazing throughout your precious life and our entire world.

Let's focus on our impeccable purity of being in love and light.
Ride the airwaves with me on a glorious sunburst of exquisite delight assailing and setting our senses a-dazzling (that's through BOTH the video AND the Spring Equinox!)

And so, by our ecstatic exaltation, together we oscillate our Earth into more and more Light.

We spin, we rock we shine our Earth into Ascension now!

Our Light leads our way now, and perhaps this new video will too?

Again, You may like to watch this in HD (High Definition) instead
- click here to watch in large screen High Definition at YouTube!

In our ecstatic love and light,

Leela (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)