Saturday, December 20, 2008

Video Blog: Falling in Love

Hello dearest Friend,

In this video I am sharing about how to love, not how we may have been taught to love in limited and restrained ways and how to love conditionally, but rather, let's talk about wild love, let's talk about loving freely and unconditionally.

Did you know that that we don't need to try to love: it's more a relaxing into love, an unrestrained free-fall into love and that's why we call it "falling in love."

I invite you to let yourself love without limits and have a glorious love affair, not only with yourself and others but with our entire world; because it's our natural state to be in ecstasy and love!

And by allowing ourselves to love freely, unconditionally and wildly we will see our beautiful reflection in our world: we will see how our world loves with us.

Enjoy my video:

All in love,

Leela (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Following the footprints of our Soul

This blog came into life from a comment on my previous blog ("From victim hood to love") which was both a response of appreciation and a question that many people seem to be asking themselves at the moment, regarding how to know what they want for their future. And so I thought you may be interested in my reply!

Timewave2012 said... Hi Leela I love your Spirit Talk Radio and I love your blog as well I added it to my Google Feed. I have a lot of questions for you, but I'm sure you have many others who need your help before I do. I have a little problem deciding what I want for my future. I've been really practicing staying in the now moment but it's not helping me choose what I want in life. I gave up on video games and most of tv and some movies. I can let all that stuff go, but then I wouldn't know what to do or where to go. I have this strong urge to help people and one of my hobbies is computers and the internet. So I do have a blog that I have to help share knowledge and information, but I feel like I want to do more than that.
I still have my ego and it does get in the way a lot. Meditation is very difficult for me since being an empath, I have a hard time being still, I also shake sometimes it does get very annoying. I've been told I have a very unique and powerful gift, which I have to learn to access it and that my Life force energy is very strong. If you have time or a chance to respond to this I would be very grateful. I'm already very grateful for your help.

Hello my friend,

For you are, indeed, my friend, since your question: "How do I decide what I want for my Future," is also my own precious question and thus sparked a chord in me, like a quest back to our soul's calling and thus fertile and vibrating with infinite possibilities...

This quest to discover what we truly want can be started by sensing in your bones and in your heart what your greatest 'feeling' for yourself and your life would be. I say 'feeling' because our mind often comes with built in censors and programs that distort and even stop us from acknowledging that we may have a dream in the first place.

And so dear heart, dear fellow soul, feel in your being and in your imagination (which is the gate keeper to your creative genius) what is your greatest idea, dream and vision of yourself, beyond the constraints of your limited thinking... Let the wizard of your imagination guide you.

Feel your soul, your spirit; feel the impulse that brought you here into this incarnation; feel the urge, the desire in you to express your soul's calling.

Feel your greatest dream for you and humankind.

And as something arises, feel also what comes up for you in the next momentous moment; it may actually be your greatest resistance or censor to that idea...

Many of us censor, or completely press the delete button on our dream the moment we start to sniff it out, or even get a hint of it spiraling up from the depths of our imagination, as we start to ponder and muse on our magic..

However, that censor or diminishment will have left its treachery: an inconsolable ache like a thorn in your side, the poison of uncertainty to taint your dream, passion and what you truly want for your life.

Trace the pain to the bare bones of our soul... and let it fly!

I hold out my hand to you now and share with you my ache and my dream, to illustrate my point of view.

When I asked myself that question, "What is my ache, my dream, that I want for my future?" I feel a dream in me to be like the fairy goddess in the final Firebird scene of the film 'Fantasia 2000': ushering, awakening, enlivening, inspiring, exciting my world and my fellow souls into their aliveness of spirit and ecstasy, joy and love. You may watch and be inspired by this scene below:

Fantasia 2000 Firebird Suite:

And want to live this now... I feel the desire in me, to live it now in this moment...

If I am really honest with myself and examine my life and the things that I do, such as my spiritual Ascension work, in whatever form I do it, whether through my writing, courses, blogs, videos or my whole life healing sessions - all helping and supporting my fellow souls, I can feel that what I truly want is the feeling state that my work creates in me. It is a total dissolution of myself, a spiraling, a diving into, a meltdown into the pure orgasmic feeling of my purity of being. And so I lose control---- oh, such bliss, as I enter the rapturous regal realm of melting, ecstatic meltdown becoming transparent and amorphous, merging into myself and into my mirror reflection of my world and everyone in it... And so, willingly and wildly, I let myself fall into even more of the almost unbearable exquisite essence of the moment and then into absolute love. And so the tempo unfolds: I engage an exquisite infinity dance in ecstatic relationship with whatever (and whomever) I have melted with - a free-falling, a diving, a dieing - to and fro - in and out of saturated bliss and back, oscillating into the very deity we are -

And as we love we play, dancing and gliding in light; hovering, spiraling and surfing on waves of hypnotic splendour of delight. I awaken, inspire and breathe new life into our spirit lying dormant beneath the heavy snowfall of our limitations, beautifully cultivated over our years of pain, stunted from our true natural ecstatic beingness.

Joyfully born out of limitless love I ignite a fire in our weary lament to create a quickening in the body of our soul.

Like the fairy goddess in Fantasia, I want no other thing than to dive into more of myself, my world and everyone, including you! And so I allow myself to feel it.

And as I feel it, I am being it: I am being the fairy goddess sprite. And then my heart exalts me to live it. And so I am living it now, I am tapping into the feeling of my imagination and I feel myself dancing, tumbling and melting with you right now as I write these words born from my ache, my desire and my dream.

It feels like we are tumbling in the sky of our life, like Ecstasy Dancing - it feels so good...

And from our greatest feeling, idea and vision of our self, we must then begin being it and living it. Pay attention here, this is ultra-important: it's no good just keeping it in your head as a ''nice idea", or your ache, your mal content will rise up inside you like a discordant cord and point you acutely back to the longing of your soul. You must live it now, even if your life's outer appearances don't change. And you will know that you have got in touch with your highest, inspirational feeling when it would not matter whether your life's circumstances changed for you or not; for you are being and living your dream... You are literally lost (in rhapsody) with your Dream.

Encore! Encore... From this state of feeling, being and living out our greatest dream of ourselves, we cannot but create the opportunities, events and resources to synchronistically appear in our lives as a mirror effect of living our dream. We have thus entered the kingdom of our Imagination and are in wide-eyed wonder at our startling summation: We are in awe at our stunning realisation: we create our physical reality experience to live out our dreams.

Live how you truly want to feel, and be your dream unconditionally, i.e. do not put your life on hold until it gets better - it will not... until you allow yourself to be' 'better' and live 'better'

And so dear friend, in response to your question (the quest-I-on, the quest to get back to yourself)... Allow yourself to evoke your greatest imagination and dream of yourself, by asking yourself this sacred question: "What is the art that is wanting to be born out of my heart?" And it may well be that the computers and the internet are a part of your expression or a tool to assist you into a deepening and a widening of that dream.

You are the important part of the equation. Put yourself in the spotlight, let your imagination go wild, let yourself soar freely on the currents of your inspiration and you will feel your answer. Do not censor your fantasy, be it, live it and you will stun yourself by the amazing synchronicity of your life that will be revealed to you by the unfolding of what you have already set in motion by your state of being and living.

When we really don't let the circumstances in our life dictate our dream and we live it anyway (being it and living it out in each and every moment, no matter what), then our future comes to greet us with a wide open smile, our destiny morphs to meet us in our God's Glory. No more straining to peer into the future (that's like chasing our own tail or putting the cart before the horse), instead, let's dance and Be the future we want to be right now.

And the funny thing is that when we are living and enjoying being our dream, we find ourselves falling into the actions that are most supportive of the dream that we are being, without spending time agonising over how we would create it! It is an automatic process, a joy, our natural surge when we allow ourselves to be our dream, now - unconditionally.

As you read these words you may find the energy rising inside you at idea of meditating on this idea and maybe even feel you can't sit still. Just see what happens when you don't resist the flow of that pure raw essence of yourself... Just go with the flow, anything might can happen, like your energy rushing up your spine into a glorious image of your Absolute Ecstatic divinity.

And so dear heart, our question as to our quest gives us an amazing clue back to our glorious Self, and is akin to following the footprints of soul......

Leading us into our holy dream.

Thank you, for your amazing question for it reminds me of my own quest: to be and live my Ecstatic dream.

Joy to our World!

All my Love

Leela (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Thursday, November 20, 2008

How to use victimhood to fall into your true power and unconditional love

Dear One,

It is my utter joy to share with you a story of how you can use the feelings of victimhood to access your true power and so fall into unconditional love.

This comes from my heart to yours.

Comments can be put on the comment link on the bottom of this blog or at YouTube - Click Here (where you can also put your own 'Star rating' vote ! )

Love you utterly and eternally,

All my Love

Leela (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Sunday, November 09, 2008

Choosing Our World despite "The Powers That Be" and Fear for our Future

Hello dear One

I invite you to join me in the most empowering, invigorating, loving experience we have entered into to date: How to choose the world of our dreams, despite 'The Powers That Be'.

As I was preparing myself to share this truly powerful and loving experience with you I took a walk down on our golden beach. The light seemed to be even brighter than usual, even in this our November time.

And as I thrilled and pirouetted in absolute joy I heard my Soul say, "We are dreaming a new world into existence." And as if to echo my soul's rejoicing a beautiful rainbow appeared washing the sands and me in rainbow light. John saw it too from our home and took this photo of it! You can actually see the colours reflected on the wet sand!

Enjoy and be empowered by my video:

I will be delving more deeply into this subject on my Spirit Talk Radio show today (which can also be listened to/downloaded later at any time).
Please do join me, and call in if you'd like to share or discuss - that would be wonderful (for full details on HOW click Here )

Comments can be put on the comment link on the bottom of this blog or at YouTube - Click Here (where you can also put your own 'Star rating' vote ! )

All my Love
Leela (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Sunday, November 02, 2008

How to turn your Crisis into Joy


I received a heartfelt email from a friend asking what to do about their current financial crisis and I have made a video blog to share the answer with you too (in 2 parts due to YouTube's 10 minute restriction)

Part 2:

This is a new venture for me; I hope to do more of these - I spend a lot of time on individual responses to people and thought how good it might be to make them more widely available.

Comments can be put on the comment link on the bottom of this blog or at YouTube (where you can also put your own 'Star rating' vote ! ) Click Here for Part 1 (and Here for 2)

Lots of Love
PS PLEASE NOTE - this was the subject of my Episode 07, which you can listen to below:
Spirit Talk Radio Show - Sundays 5pm UK time (12 noon EST) (1 hour earlier in winter!)
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(time shown is YOUR local time!)

I do hope you will join in, there's detailed guidance on my website at: (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Thursday, October 23, 2008

How to use Oct 14 'prediction' to catalyse us into Unconditional Love

Hello dear Friend,

In this video I invite you to join me in using the wave of energy catalysed by Blossom's October 14th prediction for going into more and love with ourselves, each other and our world.

All my love,
Leela (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Love Invocation: A song for You, Blossom and our Humanity

Hello Dear Hearts,

I am so ecstatic and joyous to share with you below a video song I have created, born from the myriad emotions I am feeling in our world that have been catalysed by Blossom Goodchild's mass UFO sighting prediction that didn't come to pass. I feel so much sadness, disappointment and anger in our world and -I feel love and joy too.

Out this cauldron of negativity (and positivity) I feel there's a wave of love going through our world carrying more and more people on the momentum of breaking their hearts open into more light. I feel so much love and compassion for our humanity's commitment to be all that we can be.

And so I am spurred to uplift the energy: I have created a love song for you, Blossom and our humanity...

So, here is my response to Blossom Goodchild's October 16th updates video.

It comes from my heart to yours, and I feel your love too...

If you would like to leave share your own response to this wave of Love, please do either click on Comments on bottom of this blog or add to the many wonderful comments I've already received on the copy on YouTube !

I love you so much,

Leela (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Friday, October 17, 2008

A Love Invocation for our Humanity

The last few days of the whole October 14th UFO prediction event has become an unprecedented worldwide internet phenomenon. And the lack of appearance of any massive UFO for 3 days has provoked such extreme reactions and confusions in so many people that I've certainly not encountered before. I wanted to express my feelings about this:

As I connect with you right now, I feel such fragility, openness and purity within us all which has been catalysed over the last few days.

I want to enfold you in my arms and soothe the confusion.

I feel the rawness, openness and fragility of us - I feel your purity.

And as I feel these things, I feel bowed by an overwhelming love for our humanity and I feel struck by utter, utter compassion -- despite much anger 'out there'.

I find myself asking, "How can we best serve those who feel anger and disappointment?"

And I hear our soul whispering in the wind, "By allowing yourself to feel what our soul is guiding us into in this moment." I listen deeply, and for me it is the fragility, the purity, the openness of being and, most of all, the unconditional love compounded by waves of deep, deep compassion.

And so I breathe deeply and drink copiously of the streams of love and light that are betwixt us and between us.

And I find our soul returning and whispering on a wave of light, "As you allow yourself to feel our purity, our openness and our fragility, allow it to wash through you into deep, deep unconditional love and you will always find yourself automatically 'doing' and expressing what will best serve our humanity."

And I rejoice and feel without resistance the wave of our overwhelming emotions - breaking us, taking us, opening us into more and more love.

And on the next wave of ecstasy, I find myself crying with joy, "I love you utterly and profoundly."

I carry you in my heart always, as an emblem to our joy....

Leela... (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Monday, October 13, 2008

October 14th and beyond - the next level from galactic

Hello again
Here is the second part of my video blog on Oct 14th UFO prediction and taking it to the next level (also on YouTube):

All my love
Leela (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Friday, October 10, 2008

Preparing for Oct 14th Contact - The Video!

Dear Friends,

In this video I both channel and share a deeper perspective on the how we are creating our October 14th reality as we go! Many people have expressed fear and uncertainty as they have read some sources about this, but really, there's nothing to fear when you appreciate the love and support we all have. It's so wonderful to share it (it's had 1,000 YouTube views in the first 12 hours!)...

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All my love

Leela (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Preparing for Contact - October 14th

Hello dear One,

You may have heard a lot of chatter about the possible appearance of a mass UFO sighting over major cities around our world on October 14th.

I would love to take this opportunity to share with you what I feel in my heart about what is going on and you can then check within yourself and your own truth on the matter...

In summary, you will see what you truly want to see and feel it deeply conducive to your own personal growth and spiritual evolution right now.

Here is a message I channeled from The Founders (thought to be responsible for architecting our Galaxy!)

"There will be no one fixed event but a myriad of different reality experiences according to what each of you really want for yourselves and your world. This includes BOTH the possibilities (amongst many) of experiencing the version of you that believes that it is all a hoax and nothing happens, as well as the version of you that really DOES experience the effect of a mass UFO sighting. This, our loving guidance, is to help you into choosing the actual version of events that BEST suits you - and you alone.

"You are entering a portal to the next bandwidth of yourself where you will start to perceive for yourself that there is not one universe or scenario of events but literally an outpouring from your being of the version of your world that you wish to create and it will have your unique stamp on it!

"You are coming into your power and recognising that you are each your own saviour and that don't need someone else to come and save you! And we of the Galactic Federation certainly do not want to foster the idea that you need saving!

"For this reason, it could even be detrimental to your own self-empowerment and growth to have the overwhelming effects of a mass UFO sighting.

"Some of you have no need to experience this type of grand gesture and verification of the existence of other life forms and civilisations because you already know they exist, for some of you have been contacted personally and directly.

"Others have already made contact and had interactions with your space brothers and sisters in your dreams or deep meditative state when the barriers to perceiving and receiving information from other dimensional aspects of yourselves are down and you feel safe in this state.

"Many of you have even met your own counterparts or future selves in dreams and get the feeling of intense familiarity vibes of friends or family around you. And some of you have met up with your hybrid children too!

"To expand: the reason there has not been a mass sighting yet is because we would not want to impose such an overwhelming presence upon the whole of your world.

"As some of you may know, being in the presence of a high energy body will naturally cause you to resonate yourself with that frequency. And thus there would be an overwhelming effect energetically if one our 'City Of Light' star ships were to appear to you at such a close range, and so we have kept ourselves just outside your density of perception.

"And that is just seeing us in the sky! If you were to actually have physical face-to-face contact with us it would be like standing next to a furnace of light; the intensity of purity of beingness would reveal everything to you that you have held under wraps or concealed in your subconscious. It would provoke your shadow side (which you are integrating at your own pace) to come rising to the surface all at once in a rush and could cause you to go into psychotic breakdown. We would not want to impose that on you, just as you would not want that for yourself. We desire, as you desire, to be as equals to us before we make physical contact.

"So, it is not in our own interests, just as it is not in yours, to put such an imposition on you at this time. You are already preparing for such contact in a way that is empowering for each of you, so that you can meet us on equal terms...

"In addition, to be in such close proximity of a higher frequency modulation would for many of you generate a lot of fear, as you find yourself immersed in a higher frequency field of energy and that would cause a catalytic shock as all your primal fears lock on. You would feel you are losing your reality and control, and that could create nightmares in your being.

"And so this is why not everyone can or wants to 'see' a UFO at such close proximity and with the energetic implications of a 'City Of Light' coming so close into your density. To take it to a greater degree, not everyone would want to meet their extraterrestrial counterpart ... and so, you attract to you what you are wanting and ready to perceive at this time, for your OWN spiritual and human evolution.

"The safety valve is that we are here with you right now, but in a higher dimensional frequency bandwidth of experience. If you were to really see our craft the way they actually are, they would appear as a flash of light or ball of light.

"You created this safety valve inside you so that you would not perceive us until you are ready. And we know that many of you have already seen us in the skies as such because you have raised your frequency, your light to meet us half way.

"We have de-accelerated our frequency on occasion to make us more physical to your 3D reality density in order to make a point that we are here, as and when you have asked us individually and when it serves a group of people.

"We have decreased and de-accelerated our energy field to make a physical appearance to certain groups of individuals who were in agreement to such an occurrence.

"However, it is very uncomfortable for us to reduce our frequency too far towards your 3D density. More importantly, you have been wanting to raise your energy up to meet US. You wish to be and live as more of your true self including the beginning of integrating with your other-dimensional selves and experiences to enable you to ascend to being the most true, free, blazing spirit of yourself right here on your Earth, which is also ascending.

"As you shift and raise your frequency to meet us on equal terms you will know for sure that your Earth is intimately bonded to you and thus she shifts her frequency with you into the version of your world you have always wished to dream into being from the beginning.

"Many of you are preparing for contact; many of you have been in contact with us for years and in other timeframes of yourselves. And in your dreaming and meditative states we have been whispering to you, loving and supporting you to be and embrace all that you are in rhapsody and light.

"Just carry on being the true light of yourself, holding the joy, peace and love no matter the storms around you. For you are indeed ascending into being your true vibrant awesome radiant Selves, as you allow the shift into all that you are. By being in your light, joy, love, peace and the lightness of laughter your version of Earth will literally move with you.

"Because your Earth (as your extension) cannot but reflect the light that you already are. We and your higher aspects are taking an active part in your own evolution and Ascension as you allow yourself to be open to all aspects of yourselves and channel the influences of higher dimensional bandwidths of yourselves, integrating 4th, 5th and 6th dimensional frequencies, as well as, for example, the Sirian, Pleaidian and Arcturian aspects of yourselves that are coming to you now via 'Star gate Six' (NB. this is not a physical phenomenon but an energetic belt and portal in your own consciousness becoming accessible now that you are expanding at this time).

"And so you are saving and helping yourselves.

"And we are so very proud of you; you are on time!

"All dimensions are starting to blend.

"We love you -

"Exaltations Friends!"

he Founders

So, you see, I believe we are at a zero hour that opens the gateway to being our beingness, to radiating our infinity of expression in love, light and freedom.

What will actually happen is that we will each create the version of Earth that we wish to create: what we create is what we project from the totality of our being reflecting how we live and feel about ourselves and the quality of our relationship to ourselves.

Our essential being, the purity of our beingness, will be reflected in the Earth we create. We are literally each our own universes and yet intricately bonded to each other as the One being that we are - and so not alone.

Thus we will create a version of our Earth that we wish to live in, with the appearance of all those other aspects of ourselves who appear to have made a similar choice.

At the same time, other versions of ourselves create various other alternate parallel reality tracks, according to what they are wanting to perceive and experience, albeit hidden from our immediate awareness. In this way, we get to experience and enjoy our reality that we have created without distraction. Each one of us will get the version of our Earth literally of our own thoughts, beliefs and aspirations.

So, I am suggesting to you that all outcomes are possible for you... and for me, independently. What a paradox!

And we can go kicking and screaming and fighting our change, or we can surrender to our natural inclination to be all that we are in love, light and ecstasy, and so allow ourselves to be who we really are and live that version of ourselves right now.

We are our own governments, we are our own military. We are each healing and integrating not only on a personal level but also as reflected on our own global level.

We are literally our own world among worlds.

Leela (my main website: healing, courses, resources) (FREE Personal Ascension video and attunement!)
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Tuesday, September 23, 2008

My Excursion with Extra-Terrestrials

Dear Friend,

I will never forget my journey to the Andromeda Galaxy. It left a mark on my being that pierced my heart and changed my life forever; it opened me to my life's promise and how I was bound up with the destiny of our Earth.

My story I'm about to share with you in detail may sound like Science Fiction, but it's all Psychic Fact! I can assure you that it's as real to me as your everyday experience of our world.

It was about 3 am in the morning when I was awakened by a deep, heart-pulsing whirling sound that sent revolving reverberations through my body and, as I opened my eyes, I gasped: at the foot of my bed were spiralling balls of light moving up and down in an oscillating fashion, rather like a cork screw effect...

I was not scared! No, on the contrary, I felt a strong familiarity of family: the familiar vibe of my friends.

Telepathically, I heard the balls of light speak, "We have come to take you to the Andromeda Galaxy, as agreed; it is time."

The impact of their words evoked a remembrance in me; it brought it all back in a rush. I had a vivid flashback of having lived in such a place, standing on a sandy plain, the sun blazing behind me and the trees highlighted by the rosy orange skyline, their arching branches not unlike our Joshua trees. There were two suns... with one slightly smaller and behind the larger, more dominant sun. I was clearly on another planet and it felt like a higher dimensional plane - much more fluid and shimmering in its physical appearance than ours.

I recalled having made an agreement with the Andromedians to reconnect and visit at a specific time as part of my role to aid and assist our Earth into the 4th and 5th Dimension.

And this was my wake up call.

Here I was, lying wide awake and struck with the familiarity of it all, even with the accompanying high frequency vibrations coursing through my veins. At the same time I chose to rise up without a second thought and they proceeded to take my hand in their to help me up - though they didn't really have hands, it was more in the sense of an empathetic gesture as I sank my hand into the semblance of theirs in deep trust...

As we disappeared through the wall together I was aware that I had left a version of me lying on my bed on my back watching this other version of me go off with them out into the night to venture into a small craft about the size of a snow mobile awaiting our presence and suspended midair just outside our hut.

As we all boarded I felt the craft flex to accommodate us and I snuggled up to my brothers in cosy delight. I felt both safe in their presence and at the same time deeply excited.

The smooth, svelte snow mobile type of craft was almost silent as it rose gracefully into the air and sped off into the darkened skies to meet the mother craft stationed in deep space.

On the way we raced through the planets, flying past the beautiful pink of Venus twinkling in the velvety blue of outer space light and then I saw her, the mother ship, a splendid creation suspended in space like a city of light: glistening, vibrating and oscillating. She appeared to be made of liquid metal and seemed to be alive and ever so slightly changing her shape as you looked at her. It reminded me of a pair of lungs moving and still, imperceptively changing shape. As to the colour of the ship, well.... it appeared to be iridescent hues of copper, silver and blue!

I had the distinct feeling that she was welcoming my presence.

We seemed to move from our small craft into the mother ship by diffusion and at the same time a hatch door opened and we found ourselves on what looked like a runway inside the ship edged with little blue lights, not unlike a fashion show catwalk.

As we glided down it, I felt like I was moving without effort, as if I were on a conveyor belt and there was this whooshing, whirling sound coming from the heart of the craft.

I found myself being entranced by the d├ęcor of the ship. I loved the fact that there was a complete absence of sharp or angular lines; the architecture of the space was smooth and curvy with a spiral design at its core.

And I loved the fact that the ship was so perfectly warm; as you walked the craft would monitor your temperature and adjust it to suit you!

I found myself being led into a small room with no furniture apart from a type of glass-like coffin pod and beheld the amazing countenance of a tall wise Grey (from an advanced faction of the Zeti Reticula ETs), about seven foot high.

I was not at all freaked out; on the contrary I instantly trusted this being as compassion and gentleness seemed to emanate from his venerable being. I knew that goodness was his soul vibration and he could never even conceive of hurting another.

He took my hand in his hand. It was gnarled like the bark of an oak tree, yet so translucent you could almost see through to his veins; his skin like alabaster.

I fell deeply into his trust and lay back in this pod. The glass top came over and clicked softly into place and then I felt I was being scanned with gentle light in rainbow colour pulses.

I caught my breath: to my surprise I saw a version of me being replicated in another pod next to mine.

"I will take care of you," the tall Grey whispered telepathically, sending waves of compassion and love to soak my body. "We are going to make a clone version of you so that you can travel to the Andromeda galaxy unharmed."

"We need to do this, for if you went unprotected in your present physical state you would haemorrhage."

And so, as I lay there in my glass coffin tube, layers of light began to play over my skin and deep within me too. At the same time I had the distinct awareness that there was still a version of me back in my bed 'dreaming' all of this and yet fully awake too.

The compassionate Grey appeared to be watching and monitoring me carefully, checking my heartbeat and blood changes, etc. as I went through the duplication process. It didn't hurt at all, but was, in fact, very pleasurable; I felt I was being bathed in sunlight.

Then I saw myself as the cloned version of me getting up and being escorted by the balls of light to another door.

What I saw next stunned me; I was dazzled in delight and wonderment. Automatic doors opened to reveal a star ship contained within this one, unlike any I had ever seen before.

This one was a shimmering light and had a dodecahedron geometric pattern, composed of a twelve pointed star, oscillating and vibrating. As I watched it, it kept changing its shape into other geometric configurations and patterning, all accompanied by a deep vibrating hum that caused me to vibrate into ecstasy.

And as I vibrated in this ecstasy I could hear tones, similar to musical notes, coursing through me as they coursed through the extra-terrestrials as we fine tuned and shaped the configuration of the ship's domain and set its destination.

I gasped as I realised that I was one of them. I was - they were - one with the ship's consciousness. I felt and knew that the ship was an extension of ourselves and intricately bonded to us.

We were truly one: a living, breathing mer-ka-ba energy body of consciousness...

Then another resounding memory hit me, we actually don't 'travel' as such in their ships; we adjust our own and their ship's frequency to the coordinates and frequency of where we want to be and then find ourselves instantly re-located through resonance.

And so together, as one being including the craft, we rose in our frequency, like a soaring anthem of love, light and ecstasy as we set our energy to Andromeda. I felt I was spinning like a top as we merged with the craft and Andromeda itself and we became liquid light on fast-forward!

Accompanied by a very high pitched whistling, we appeared to vibrate faster and faster, setting our intent for the resonant frequency of our destination planet in the Andromeda Galaxy and... we suddenly were 'there' in what felt like a few seconds.

I could feel that the craft had indeed become more 'solidified' again as we stepped out onto a sandy plateau, my ears ringing and slightly disorientated from the translocation. We were met by a glorious expansive rocky landscape with a haunting scent of pine lingering in the air, reminiscent of the ethereal realm of perfect beauty and vivid presence that Jody Foster 'went' to in the film Contact.

We beheld beautiful towering purple mountains kissing a pink orange sky. The air felt very rarefied. I sensed the oxygen content to be much richer than Earth, but I got used to it very quickly and drank it in deeply. As I contemplated this weird and wonderful place I found myself in I saw deep valleys and plains that appeared to stretch forever and exude an orange glow about them, rather like looking through tinted sunglasses.

I was then greeted by some amazing beings who I cannot even attempt to ascribe an appearance to, for they kept shifting their form as they talked to me.

I found myself laughing out loud! I realised that they had this amazing ability to change their physical appearance to mirror my own thoughts and emotions. I found it fascinating to see my inner vocabulary played out in the physical appearance of another; they were indeed master shape-shifters!

I had the distinct feeling that they could see right into my heart, and read my entire thoughts and their perambulations.

I greeted them by crossing my right palm over my heart, accompanied by voicing "Exaltations, Friends!" (I had previous learned that this was the customary galactic greeting!)

A smile broke over their bodies, like the sun coming out, making me feel that the whole planet smiled with them! They were individual but also I was strongly aware that I was in the midst of a very strong group consciousness. It felt totally inviolate: the energy was completely uninvasive, infused with an inbuilt respect, strength and stability.

Then, after a mutual pause they began to speak as one, "We have been monitoring you and planet Earth for years, watching your progress and your desire to re-member and re-engage with your true empowered and naturally ecstatic selves. You have decided to reconnect with your extraterrestrial and other dimensional roots to assist your integration back to your whole Self. We have invited you here because we wanted you to take a message back to Earth - not one that would be transmitted just verbally, but one that would emanate from your frequency and your beingness. And that message being that this time when humans meet us on Earth that they would not treat us as Gods, but as equals.

"We came before with the Sirians to your ancient Egypt and shared wisdom and technology that was expressed in the creation, art and symbology of the pyramids and the Egyptian civilisation, but we were then elevated to Godhood. And this catalysed your descent, due to this artificial separation between your God-Self and your limited self.

"Much time has past in your own growth and ascension, as stirrings and pangs in your being to know who you really are have awoken. You have become hungry for your light again and to know how your true power lies within yourself and to no longer ascribe it to an external symbol or body or another.

"You have done well. You have learnt so much about your own power of creation and its implications. You have become discerning and more self-aware, knowing the true implications of a heart-centred awareness and clarity of intent. Your sub-conscious is no longer hidden to the back of your mind or in myths or concealed in stories, but is all coming out to be healed and integrated. All this is so that you can be all that you are and not a shadow of yourself, becoming fully conscious and to affirm your resplendent choice in the version of Earth you wish to create.

"People of Earth now know it's time to remember their own Godhood.

"You are indeed Gods in creation."

"And you know that your own unique part in this legacy is to help raise the frequency of Earth into the next dimension of itself by helping others raise their frequency to the level of their God-like Stature..."

And so I came to hear and imbibe the message from the stars from Andromeda: that we are indeed Gods-in-Creation and that our promise is being fulfilled: to remember (re-member) our creator-hood and that our entire reality, life, world and universe is created out of our inner utterances and brilliant imagination. We are all One creating our individual and discreet worlds within worlds, a bit like a Russian doll. We are layers within layers of ourselves and yet all here now. The message is to Open your eyes, Open your being and feel all that is entirely obvious to you, which you have hidden within yourself and so cleverly concealed!

And so dear ones, sleep deeply, dream vividly and know without a shadow of doubt that you are your entire living reality-dream including the events that happen to you. Know that it is all a perfect refection of you and that that reflection is entirely unique to each individual. You have your own life theme and what you are wanting to live out, learn and integrate what your greatest aspirations are, and so thread them together to make a purer and purer reflection of your ideal world. You are learning that there is no difference between the imagined and the real. As you allow yourself to be all that you are in your integrity and joy, you will find that your whole world, and all of us around you IN your world, literally moves with you, for it is the body and playground of your consciousness (which is, of course, OUR Consciousness).

Honour and love everything and everyone as your living dream and as your own artistic expression, and you will transform everything into love. We are each Gods Incarnate and in Creation!

And when you do meet your extra-dimensional counterparts - don't forget to treat them as equals in our creation and to greet them, hand on heart, with "Exhalations, Friends!"

Exaltations! Dear friends.

PS Because of the higher energies in this blog it may provoke deep memories and/or energetic shifts within you, as well as new understandings and clarity about your role and your relationship with reality!

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Wednesday, September 03, 2008

When you hit the wall - how to get through the Dark Night of the Soul

Hello dear Friend,

There comes a time in our growth and Ascension when we hit what appears to be a wall.

Out of the blue it comes, like the sound of fire doors being slammed shut around you, imprisoning you in a 'grey' room with no windows, no light, no way out! You are left gasping for breath and stunned in bewilderment: you have hit the 'wall'.

This is like a ceiling limit that you are wanting to go through in order to be free of all attachments to your physical reality that have kept you in limitation.

Two weeks ago, when I hit my own dark night of the soul, I felt I was going out of my mind. Everything that I had previously held in store about the nature of my reality appeared to be unravelling fast; this was the most awesomely painful loneliness I have ever experienced. It was accompanied by losing everything in my life that I had believed gave me meaning, value and stability. It felt like the whole framework for my life that had been previously cultivated, perfectly schooled and groomed over the years was disintegrating.

I had to just let go and go and feel my own way through it; there was no way out, all my bridges had been burnt.

There was no one to turn to, only my guides and my trusty gut feeling: my instinct by my side.

When you too, hit this wall, I know that it will be the hardest thing you have ever gone through and, whereas I was on my own, I want you to know that, if you like, I will be with you, holding you in my heart every step of the way.

And so dear one if you find yourself in the dark night of the soul, wrestling in the madness of your own desperate thoughts, do not try and push yourself through it. You need to feel everything. Feel everything... and it will pass.

Even though it will feel like you are going crazy, please be assured that you are not going out of your mind; you are breaking free of the attachments that you have created and that you believe you needed to validate your existence or give you a sense of purpose or meaning in your life.

For me that was a job, a stream of clients and opportunities to assist and support other people. And so I created what I feared the most - the unthinkable: for all those things to be taken away from me that I used to validate or justify my existence.

I had to feel the absolute agony of experiencing the strength of my own ego when divided against myself: falling prey to the belief that I needed a job, clients, even a 'life purpose' for being here, believing that these things gave me value, meaning or validity to my life.

The strength of my will to not let go of all this was creating havoc, like the pain of teeth being extracted ...

I was so stubborn; I wanted to hang on and on to these beliefs. Like a dog with a bone I wouldn't let go. The more I clung onto these ideas that I ought to be trying to make a living, make my life work, get myself out there and so on, the more I created disintegration in my life.

This effort was so obviously not working that the only way was to go with the flow of what I was feeling and to know that, somehow, this was my excitement and joy too.
And that is what I had to go into: I had to feel every last part of it and be broken down by it.

Yes, I needed to be broken and I wept and I surrendered as I was torn asunder.

What I experienced was that you cannot rush this process; you need to allow yourself to feel everything to its raw essence. Let yourself cry; rage is normal, even feeling suicidal is common too. For you are facing everything in your being that you have used to keep yourself subdued and restricted and you're losing those things in your life that you have used as a crutch to give you a sense of stability, security and meaning .

You are going through a process that is cathartic. It feels like you are being stripped of everything. It is like trail by fire and water' combined: everything that you thought you needed to be you is stripped away.

See it as a process of purification and do not resist any emotion that comes up. Feel it, accept it without judgement and follow the flow of your emotions and feelings in your body; it will take you into what you really want.

In fact, know that the greater the degree of despair, the more you need to let go of. For indeed, you are fighting yourself, desperately trying to cling onto anything with the semblance of normality; it feels like you are losing your reality. And you are: the one you previously held onto so dearly and tightly in order to try and maintain control!

The only way out is to embrace the unknown, the instability, the uncertainty as your own flow. Then something amazing starts to happen: as you flow with the uncertainty you become open to the unexpected. And then you really do start moving into the higher realms of living an exuberant and light filled life.

Know that when you're facing this it means you have hit a pinnacle point in your spiritual evolution. Know you will break through the ceiling of your reality as you perceive it now; you will pass right through it all.

It's time to let go. It's time to let go and fly!

As you see all the things in your life fall away from you, know them as your attachments that were like weights to hold you down. And as you let go of these attachments by not resisting or trying to control what is happening you will start to fly.

Bravo, Bravo!

However, as long as you resist this momentum of your life, more and more of your life will break up!

For you are going into a higher frequency now. Just like being a very finely tuned instrument, you need to allow yourself to flow and not to resist whatever is happening - even despair, sadness, and loneliness - just go with that as your flow too. Resistance creates heat in your being; you will burn yourself up, create aches and pains in your body; you will cause things to fall apart as you resist your own momentum.

You are venturing through an asteroid belt of you own making. Stop trying to dodge the asteroids and simply go with the flow; you will be perfectly safe as they slip right on by. You can't stop it now. You have come so far!

One thing that also really helped me when I was at my lowest point was that I asked myself the question: "What do I really want? What could I give myself now, when all external stimuli and support mechanisms have been stripped away?"

And the answer was so clear: to be in my light, ecstasy and joy, to love, to fall deeply in love with the whole of my reality - hook, line and sinker.

And that's what I did!

Looking back I can see how wonderfully my dark night of the soul helped me to lose these things in my life that was distracting me from feeling and getting in touch with every particle of me that wasn't pure, and to help me energetically to the place where I truly wanted to live my life.

And you know what? I feel I have truly broken through, for suddenly, abruptly weird and wonderful things are happening; the main one being that I have lost my driver for the need to earn or be successful, or even have a purpose.

Gosh! I feel such peace!

I have never felt such profound peace. I have lost my old sense of identity - I feel like I am merging and melting into everything. All I know now is that I am, I am, I am!

I am just pure beingness...

It feels amazing! I am so grateful for this experience, "Thank you my Universe, thank you my God, thank you my life! I know I have truly made it. I have hit and entered the pinnacle point in my life where I need nothing to give me permission to be All that I am!"

This is what I have always wanted. It only ever been just a hair's breath away and yet I felt I had to control, manipulate or fix my life just to live, breath and dance in absolute light, splendour and love.

But now I HAVE let go of all that effort and now I am whooshing around in my joy and light.

Hosanna, Hosanna, Hosanna in Excelsis. Literally, I have stripped way the layers of my being that I created to keep me tightly in control. And I am now so very comfortable being in my own skin.

I no longer have to do that much in my life... As I exude my joy and passion without expectation, just for its own sake, as I have really let go of control of my reality, my life is coming towards me. I appear to be attracting what I truly desire in the most amazing unexpected ways. Each day has become a living adventure even in the 'mundane'. Now I play and dance in my love and joy, truly being happy with where I am at and truly being ecstatic with not having to have those things in my life that I thought I needed. I whirl and waltz away my hours sewing, walking, playing, cleaning, musing and writing!

God! I feel like a child!

Now, just when I thought I had hit total acceptance, and in not just passive way but in a totally blindly ecstatic way, the unexpected happens...

I become enveloped in a complete dimensional shift. It feels like when we are in 3rd density we have to work outwards to make things happen, but now in my new dimensional experience things appear to come towards me.

I have this definitive feeling: I am literally living a dream of me; I feel am actually living IN a dream!

This leads me gently by the hand to remember and feel so clearly how I felt when I was living in the star system Arcturus in another 5th dimensional reality life experience, when as an etheric being of light, I only would have to think of something and it would appear! For example, if I wanted to get somewhere, I was already there! (Much like you may have already experienced in a dream)

I feel that the more I let go of controlling my reality the more I am now living as my Arcturian self, right here. It is as if that version of me has become me and is more me and more real than the version of 'me' that I was (prior to my dark night of the soul).

I am being ' me', here now on earth, so utterly, utterly clearly!

I don't have to do much: I think of something, I am in joy and it manifests. It's all become one event without interruption.

I realise that when we 'want' something, we have already created the idea of separation, because we feel we are separate from what we want, and that feeling actually pushes it away...

Making it all one event, by BEING the event or thing I desire means there's no interruption between the desiring, the manifesting and the enjoyment of its experience! And, of course, it usually then manifests in the most unexpected ways!

In this way, openings and opportunities have begun to open up for me in ways that I did not foresee before when I was so locked into the need for things to happen in a certain way.

All this has led me to be in such a place of wonder and ecstasy in this moment...and in this next moment... and this next moment!

I feel I no longer need a label or an identity, such as a spiritual teacher, a healer or even to be known as an Ascension Teacher; for a label would now limit me.

Nor do I need something to happen to make me happy, for as I desire it, I am it.

What this means is that what I truly desire to create, I create and I create for the absolute pleasure and fun of watching the whole process of my creation: from a desire to create 'something', to going into love and resonance with it and imagining its exquisite flowering, and then, with absolutely no effort or even thinking about HOW to create it, it just happens in its own way (thinking about how I could create it seems to stop the process in its tracks!) and I am dazzled in delight by the physical manifestation and flowering of my creation.

You see, it's more this process of going into love that is so thrilling for me and quakes me to the bone, rather than being hooked into the goal of mere manifestation itself; though that's a fun by-product that appears to happen automatically!

Rather, I am simply enjoying being in love with all my creation.

So, out of this place of the dark night of the soul, I seem to have moved into yet another level of me, to the point of being stripped of everything in my life that I thought I needed to be me and make me happy.

As all those things, supports and labels are now taken away; I am left with just 'me': I am all stillness, all quiet, all nothingness, all no-one-thing.

As I feel and explore this feeling with the whole of my being, I feel it utterly to my core. I sense that this Me, this 'substance' of Me I can feel when all is else is 'gone' is not just 'me' the witness of it all, but also that this 'me' really is my entire reality too: my life and my world, even my entire Universe. And as I behold this in awe, I recognise that everything has actually been born out of my imagination and has my own flavour running through it all! I immerse myself in the embrace of: All of This is All Me and that All of Me is All There Is.

This is indeed a place of deep peace, utter beingness and bliss, for there is nowhere I need to go to and there is nothing I need to strive for or attain: I am All there ever was and All there ever will be.

And from that state of everything being All Me and All There Is, I ask myself what I want now? What is my natural impulse?

From somewhere deep inside my core I feel a deep primal desire to love absolutely and unconditionally as my prime motivation: to create and to relate, to go into dynamic relationship with my whole reality, to love, honour and own my entire life experience as Me, to make it all utterly Personal and so discover and enjoy and have fun in learning throughout the unfolding of my creations, to take the leap into viewing my entire reality as my lover and teacher - loving me and supporting me into being more of me.

From that place of loving my entire reality as Me, I come to know and feel the profundity and implications that manifestation is not just a 'thing' that is manifested, but that I am the very thing being manifested, itself!

So, my dark night of my soul has led me to know 'This is All Me', and yet I am still enjoying the exquisite sensation of being IN a physical reality, experiencing the joy of some polarity and a sense of separation that gives me something to play with, to be in relationship with my entire reality as if it were my 'lover' and 'teacher ' and so discover more about me and my own personal reality.

And that, of course, includes you, dear reader, making an 'appearance' in my world with me, in my imagined universe. You, dear one, are born of my desire to know more of me, as I am born out of your imagination and your desire to know more of you. I sense that we are indeed utterly the same One; yet at the same time not only enjoying our own personal realities, but also appearing in each other's too!

Thus, we create relationship with the appearance of each other and 'things' in our reality, in order to savour, grow and enjoy the process of our creation: the joy of creation and the joy of just being, all happening simultaneously!

And the awareness of all this happens with absolutely no effort, but out of my unconditional ecstasy and wonderment that I am, indeed, in Oneness with the wonderment of all creation.

Again, all this has arisen out of the pain, and even despair, of hitting my wall and reaching the ceiling limit of my reality: my dark night of the soul

So, take heart, dear one. If you are going through your dark night of the soul, know that if you allow yourself to move through it without judgement of yourself or trying to control the process, you too can move into the brightest light of you that you can imagine.

This is your greatest moment; even when you feel you are being broken down and you are in the midst of such unquenchable angst know that this is your joy too, your flow and excitement. Know that you have asked for this; be in gratitude for this breaking free of your negative beliefs and attachments. And then you will move into your light...

If you are feeling your own dark night of your soul now, I am so happy for you! For, indeed, you are also at the cusp of your light! This is your sacred moment. This is the moment you have been waiting for!

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